When I was younger, I used to think my mom was corny. She’d say things that would make everyone laugh but me… I’m sure I resisted at times (since I was so cool and all) because she is a seriously fun lady. And to watch her laugh is one of my favorite things ever. Of course I don’t think she’s corny anymore… More like super brilliant. My dad too. He is really quick-witted and very charming… plus, he can handle anything. It’s fun to think on what I love about my parents. God sent me a lot of blessings through my folks, and I am totally stoked about it.
I was always pretty fun, or had the capability to be… when everything was going my way, at least. But then, long story short, I realized I was creating my own drama when I wasn’t having fun. And so I decided to “grow” out of it. Mostly. I mean, I’ll never actually “get there” but I feel that I am definitely buckled into the ride. And I think that’s the whole point. To accept the ride and MAKE it fun. It has been incredibly freeing to realize that it’s not “out there”. And it never was. And it never will be. Similar phrases or cliche’s have been used so often that I find I have to discipline my brain to REALLY think about that truth… and it usually boggles me a little.
It’s not out there.
Whoa. I’m starting to understand that the brain can’t totally “get it”. It’s more of a heart thing. Which was really scary, to me, at first, though now, I find it empowering. Everything is perfect. My “mistakes” are perfect. My situation is perfect. I am perfect.
I am invincible! And that knowledge makes me feel so alive and vibrant and energized! I am reading and writing, learning and teaching, talking and listening, expanding and shrinking all at the same time. I have no idea what the future holds, but I embrace it because I am having such a blast! Bring it on, Life!
I intend to wring the most fun possible out of every day! I believe in listening to the little voice inside me that wants to be silly, joyful and playful even if no one else will play with me. Yes, I WILL be the first person on the dance floor, AND experience different cultures, AND try new foods, AND ask children the meaning of life… and give thanks for it all.
I am totally pumped to see and experience the world, while being very well compensated for sharing what I have learned along the way. *Ca-ching!* Ooo! That will be fun too!
It is my burning desire to have fun, explore and enjoy myself. And God wants me to be happy. That’s why he made me this way. He loves me infinity. And having fun is how I love God right back.
I am reading a book titled, “This I Believe“. It is filled with stories of various authors writing about what they believe in 350-500 words. I felt led to write my own, and at 2:22 am Sunday morning, the following is what poured out. I would like to note that this was a pretty cool exercise for me and encourage you to write your own. It was fun to write and I can’t help but smile as I reread it to myself. It makes me happy. And that’s fun too.
PS: Please feel free to comment or import your own mini-essay on what you believe.